Saturday, March 27, 2010

Answered Prayer

Around my birthday, October 8th, in the year 2004, I was driving down the long Interstate 80 from Laramie, Wy to Arnold, Ne. It was a beautiful night, a sky so full of stars a person could not help but notice them. As my gaze drifted upward...so did my prayers. "Lord, do you know how I long to be a mom?" My prayers continued as I explored the somewhat "hopeless" situation. I knew there was a certain chain of events that needed to take place in order for that prayer to be answered and nothing seemed to be putting those chain of events into motion. I wondered if my prayer would forever leave me wanting. As I contemplated these things, my longings, my prayers and the stars, I could not help but think of the story with Abraham being told his descendants would outnumber the stars in the sky. An elderly, childless Abraham surely was tempted even more so than I to fall prey to doubt.

An exit sign interrupted my thoughts. Time to cancel the cruise control and get on with life...

A couple weeks after that I sat across from a cousin of mine, listening to her tell the story of their fostering and eventually adopting several children. I was enthralled with the story and listened intently to each detail spoken through both tears and laughter of a mother's heart that had been both broken and blessed through the process. I was so intrigued. If only I were married...

Another couple weeks went by and I told my sister about my time with our cousin. She told me how she had just been talking to someone who told her single women often could afford more time, emotional energy and attention for fostering children. I listened to the things she said with a stirring in my heart.

Finally, around the first part of December, I was thumbing through the Arnold Sentinel, a fascinating piece of literature I rarely take the time to enjoy. On this particular occasion, I happened to notice the classifieds which included this ad: Foster Parents in Arnold, Ne, desperately needed. I had never seen this ad before this day nor have I seen it since.

"Ok, God, I will look into it." I said. And indeed, I did...eventually.

Very close to that same time, a 16 year old girl, growing up in another world with no connection to mine, became pregnant. In 2005 she had a son. She married the father to her son and 18 months later, in 2007, she had another son. Soon after, she divorced her first husband, realized she was again pregnant and married the father of that child. In 2008, not long after her second marriage began, 19 months after her second son was born, she had a beautiful baby girl with lots of special medical needs. The girl, her husband, and three children moved to Nebraska when the little girl was almost 6 months old. Within two weeks of moving, HHS removed the children from their parents home. They began calling prospective foster homes for placement...and I was on that list.

So on March 24th, 2009, I walked into the Great Plains Regional Hospital and met for the first time a beautiful little red headed answer to prayer who is at this very moment, one year later, hollering at me in the back ground. "Mom! Mom!"

I thank God for HIS faithfulness..HIS willingness to set forth a chain of events while I was still wondering if HE even heard me.



Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Destined...
to be protected...

Psalm 3:3
"But Thou, O Lord, art a shield about me..."

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Destined...
to be delighted in...

Isaiah 62:4
No longer will they call you Deserted,
or name your land Desolate.
But you will be called Hephzibah,
and your land Beulah;
for the LORD will take delight in you,

Monday, March 22, 2010

Who at my door is standing,
Patiently drawing near,
Entrance within demanding?
Whose is the voice I hear?


Sweetly the tones are falling;
“Open the door for Me!
If thou wilt heed My calling,
I will abide with thee.”


Lonely without He’s staying;
Lonely within am I;
While I am still delaying,
Will He not pass me by?


All through the dark hours dreary,
Knocking again is He;
Jesus, art Thou not weary,
Waiting so long for me?


Door of my heart, I hasten!
Thee will I open wide.
Though He rebuke and chasten,

He shall with me abide.


Sweetly the tones are falling;
“Open the door for Me!
If thou wilt heed My calling,
I will abide with thee.”


Sunday, March 14, 2010

In This Moment

Yesterday seems so long ago
There's so many things by now I thought I'd know
There's so many dreams I thought would have come true
Still I know my only hopes in YOU, yeah
Still I know my only hopes in YOU

Tomorrow morning I might wake to find
That I lost all the treasures I thought once were mine
As I stand there all alone I'll know its true, LORD
The things I seek I only find in YOU, yeah
The things I seek I only find in YOU

But in this moment I'll just lift my hands
LORD, I come to YOU empty yet YOU understand
That I have to live each moment by YOUR grace
And I cling to the hope I have right here today, yeah
I cling to the hope I have right here today

And someday I'll hear that trumpet sound
And I know my feet are going to leave the ground
As I leave it all behind in final death, LORD
Whispering hope will be on my last breath, yeah
Whispering hope will be on my last breath


Mardel Connell 2007

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Deuteronomy 11:15

"...you will eat and be satisfied."

Friday, March 12, 2010

My future



My future's so bright...I gotta wear shades

Jeremiah 29:11